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How To Claim Compensation If You Have Been Abused

I was abused by someone who was meant to be in a position of authority, who was meant to be the 'replacement maternal figure' that I so desperately craved. Abandoned by my mother aged 2 and a half, my dad met my stepmum, aged six and well... my readers know what happened next. Jealous of my 'Dad' having another child who was not born to her, she played up to the 'wicked stepmother' archetype and would physically and emotionally beat me with her vicious words. In her eyes I was a nobody, a nothing and someone who was very much in her power. Because of her I have issues with my perception of body image, because of her I struggle to trust loved ones and because of her I have a constant guard up ... read more

How Childhood Abuse Turned Me Into A Warrior

I was a young girl, torn apart from her parents and plunged into the realm of the unknown. Born into a broken home, I found myself constantly searching for a home to call my own, afraid to mark somewhere as mine, when so many things had been taken from me. I was raised by a single dad aged 2 (and a half), childminded until I was 4, abused by my dads wife E until I was 10 and raised in care until I was 18. Is it little wonder then that in the space of 5 years I have moved 8 times, in search of my forever home, only to find my dream had never existed in the first place. You see I saw my life through numbers; my age was not a milestone but a memory of what life once was. But do I regret the ... read more

Stop Online Abuse

As I write this I am sobbing, depressed and feeling isolated from the blogging community. When I joined the blogging community I did so to connect and meet online bloggers but as of late I have received nothing but abuse and it hurts like hell. I have been called horrible names, been accused of doing things I have not done, recieved negative comments and been told that I deserve to die and should have never existed. Do you know how much it hurts to be told you are worthless, be told that your ugly and that my blog is shit simply because I stood my ground and fought for what I believed in? I don't care if my opinions are controversial because to be honest I don't care anymore, blogging is not ... read more

The Abuser Part 3

'Tangled claws caught in a web of hair  the grit of sea salt burning retinas in the dank ocean Murky depths defined by hatred in a closeted space, the tide a relentless demon, Failing organs pulsating no more in the crunch of death, past shadows threatening to overcome, Young flesh torn to metaphorical shreds in her imagination, sins best left behind in the waters, Drifting limbs struggle to escape their bodial prison, a fragmented source of my imagination' Kicking and screaming I was carried by a strong pair of arms out of the water, the salty water burning my eyes and awakening me to the reality of what my stepmother had done- she tried to kill me. In her black hollow ... read more

The Abuser

'Bees suckling at the vipers breast, the honeysuckle wilting in the darkness of beastly breath, Lurking in the undergrowth of poison ivy the thief awaits, a net of warped kindness his gift to humankind. Down the rabbit hole is a tortorous smile, laced with magic venom to lull you into a never ending slumber' Part I: Aged 0-8 We live in a state where we are judged for straying from the norm, for having the audacity to step outside of societies limitations and attempting to brave the world alone. Both women and men are criticized for having free-will, for having the strength to be unique in a state that thrives on homogeniety. I am this woman, a 'social outcast' in the eyes of ... read more

Vegan Summer Gift Guide Ideas They’ll Actually Want

Red-rimmed eyes exhausted from crying. She's lost count of the tears that streamed down her face with reckless abandon. The heart-wrenching pain after losing their cat Nala, who died in her arms. Her partner in another country unable to say goodbye. 2026 was a year that was challenging for them so far. A second cat, Loki who had to have surgery. Struggling to keep still, scared to lose him too. They say bad things come in threes, and theirs was triple that. Financial strain, and less paid work than she had last year. Feeling bad in herself, aware she wasn't even in the right mental state. Being diagnosed with ADHD, and discovering new traumas that fed on her fractured skin. Her mind ... read more

Time Anxiety: The Illusion Of Urgency Review

I look up, head first in an MRI machine, breaths shallow, the panic clawing at my chest. They tell me to keep still, to stay calm. But I feel like I am drowning, the headphones filled with a clanging noise. It's jarring, my cheeks redden. The first tears spill, cheeks swollen with misery. At this moment, time is supposed to be a constant. 15 minutes they say, and then everything will be over. But in this moment time slows down. Yawning like someone who dosen't have anything better to do. 10 minutes playing games, I lose sight of time, lost in the world of make-believe. But here, the environment feels like high pressure. Trapped in a machine that feeds into my claustrophobia. Wishing that ... read more

Helping Children Adjust To New Family Arrangements

I am a survivor. A person who speaks to her inner child often. The scared, vunerable, hurt kid who was constantly bullied, abused and taken advantage of. I had family members flake out on me. Left in the hands of evil that threatened to take away my joy. They tried to break me, but I wouldn't crumble. Determined from an early age, navigating each family crisis with strength beyond my years. Aged 2 and a half, I was abandoned by my mum. My Dad trying his best to fill in the void. Working long hours to provide for us both. Trying to give us the life that he had always dreamed of. There was a seperation that affected me deeply. I was confused, and even at that early age, I remembered fragments. ... read more

Mini Vegan Valentine’s Day Foodie Gift Guide

To Ana, food was everything. The one thing that saved her from the brink of collapse. Remembering the days where she had no money. Forced to live on rations, a climbing pile of debt swallowing her whole. One meal, parcelled out with care. Eyes wide shut, savouring each bite. Her stomach grumbling as the food danced down her rasping throat. Her relationship with food had always been complicated. Brought up in times of poverty, neglect and abuse. Remembering a childhood where food was eaten in front of her, crying out for her own. Restricted, she remembered that pattern of behaviour. How scared she was when she spent money. Wondering if she'd have more of those empty days. Mouth dry, hair ... read more

Feel Good Christmas Gift Ideas That Make You Smile

For the longest time, Christmas would fill her with dread. Memories of being abused as a child, seeping through her consciousness. The bruises, yellow-purple mottling, fading over time. The silvery scars blending into pockmarked skin. Poisonous shadows throttling her, lacerated throat. She would tremble, a raised hand, a venomous voice. Stripping away her confidence, her self-esteem no more. Wondering if this was what life would be forever. Hiding in the darkness, afraid of what would happen next. Words like weapons, sharp and cold. Her spirit sold to the highest bidder. The woman who robbed her of her childhood innocence. Forced to grow up, tiny feet in too-big shoes. Learning to bury ... read more