Faded Spring

    Pineapple Fever:Zaful

    I cling onto summer like a bird clings onto its chicks, wafting myself with tropical scents and deluding myself into thinking that the brisk foray of autumnal or winter wind is really just a disguise for cool beach like breezes, where palm trees sway and the children laugh in play. In this fantasy world there is no need to envelop yourself in layer after layer nor is your feet swathed in boots with the [faux] fur. Instead like a 'Midnight Summer Nights' dream there are the players and there are the audience but the question is which one am I? I am both the player and the spectator fawning over summers special delights but creating my own summer fantasy which largely consists of colourful ... read more

    23 Birthday Candles

    Here I am, another year older counting my non existent candles and watching the metaphorical flames burn out. Another year full of promise, another year to grow and learn. I used to love birthdays, getting presents and being treated like someone special but one year the magic faded. Growing up I was left by my mum at the age of 2 1/2 while my dad tried his best to make me feel like his special girl. He was never a bad dad, not even when he met the love of his life, the woman who abused me and who I was meant to call mum. My step mum was a manipulative, selfish woman who did everything in her power to make me feel worthless and unloved and in time even my own dad saw me as second best. I ... read more

    Unrequited Love

    I was always that girl, pining away in a corner wondering if the guy I loved would ever love me back in return. While friends easily flirted their way into guy’s affections I was awkward and found it hard to be around guys that I liked. I was that girl with a best friend who was dating the guy I liked, for a year I was trapped in someone else’s shadow and with every kiss that I saw my heart shrunk a little more. I was that girl who would write poems and stories, blessing each word with a memory of a lost love. I was always so shy growing up, choosing not to tell guys when I liked them because they were always the wrong guys, they were too popular, too perfect, too good looking for me. At ... read more

    Here We Go Again

    The last two months since I have moved to London had been both a 'dream' and a 'nightmare'. I fulfilled my dream of living in the mystical world of London where food, drink and company is just on your doorstep. Yet it became a nightmare too, I was drowning in London's intoxicating headiness and I didn't know which way to turn. I soon found that The Reality Of Living In London was not as clear cut as I once thought nor was it this magical place of opportunity that I expected it to be. But did I regret it? Not a chance; despite having to vacate my first London property less than two months into my stay in the 'big city' I realized that ultimately it was still my home and where I belonged. Last ... read more

    Why You Should Never Judge A Book By Its Cover

    Never Judge A Book By Its Cover... I used to ride through life pretending I didn't care when the bullies called me names, that every birthday without fail my mum would forget to call, that I was invincible and intolerant to emotion. Yeah well its all a lie, a front I put on to pretend that I am stronger than I am. I don't want people to know how I am behind closed doors, how at night when the lights go out I lay awake thinking about the future and it scares me. How long will I be a prisoner in my own mind, scared to rock the boat because of its mental limitations? But noone sees this image, to them I am this invincible girl who breathes happiness and joy, who would never judge a book by ... read more

    Why I’m Just A Girl Who Is Unlucky In Love

    There was a time when I thought I was a lost cause; used and abused I had lost faith in men and eventually in relationships. I was happy for a while and told myself that I didn't need a man to make me happy. When friends told me that  I 'needed to find someone' I shrugged them off and said that no man was going to make my life complete as only I had the power to gain life satisfaction. And it was true, never have I believed that it was wrong to be single and I still don't, in fact it is perfectly normal. Women seem to be labelled spinsters before their time and I am noticing that the older I get, the more that society seems to think there is something inherently wrong with me. I mean how ... read more

    Discovering The ‘Facial’ Truth At Sinensis London

    Sinensis had achieved the impossible; placated me into a state of calm that I thought only sleep could achieve and boy was I in heaven. It all began one crisp summers day, the clouds were settling and the traffic was in motion and as I came towards my destination of 'facial truth' I felt an incredible calm aura wash over me like holy water from a fountain. As I took my seat a delicious caffeine free tisane of 'Amachazuru' was offered to me in greeting, blending a delicious combination of herbs and licorice to taste. Known as the 'Immortality Grass', it was no hyperbole to state that I could feel the blood pumping through my veins, very much reminding me that I was alive and kicking. Not that ... read more

    4th & Reckless: Perspex Boots

    I don't know when I fell in love with Perspex heels but when I fell, I fell hard. They were so wrong yet so right and contrary to what many thought, yes perspex might be the marmite of the 'shoe world' but weirdly enough I liked that they attracted controversy. They were no dull ballet slipper nor were they a timid pointed flat; perspex boots had personality and they had flair. But how on earth did it get brought to a self-loving/chelsea boota-holic's attention? They were still a boot but they had sheen and came in all shapes and sizes, it was a love match made in heaven. That being said it might come as a surprise that it was Kim K who made me lust after perspex boots. It was ... read more

    The Reality Of Living In London

    It was the perfect dream or so I thought. I would be one step closer to achieving my life goals and carving out a legacy that I would be proud of for generations to come. Except it wasn’t like that at all, instead things had taken a turn for the worst. I lived in a tiny box room and sacrificed everything for my dream but it wasn’t enough. I had to work 16 hour days to even afford the rent and it would leave me exhausted and fatigued. No longer was I able to have free time and take time out of my day to ‘practice self-care’, instead every living moment was dedicated to working my arse off for what seemed like nothing. The hours would drag and my eyes would droop, testament to the 5am wake up ... read more

    Franki & Baker: Embracing Serenity

    In a pool of blue lies a trove of jewels, glistening with the weight of precious metals. All is calm and all is clear, no disturbance save for the gentle whir of waves lapping a'shore. Bringing back the bounty that the 'sea god' gifted them, the sea nymphs swim through the waves, slippery like dolphins bringing back the seas secrets for humanity to share. The humans feast on the jewellery with ill disguised hunger; never before did they see such precious jewels cast before them, radiant and serene. There is a little chill in the air as the humans huddle around the trove of jewels but they don't seem to mind. Bathed in a soft pastel glow the jewels glint materialistically, showy enough to ... read more